The Great Debate

Late last week, I applied for several jobs online. I didn’t expect a call back, since even McDonald’s refused to hire me a few years back, due to the “holes of unemployment” in my résumé. Yes, apparently companies don’t like it if you take off months at a time for surgeries, and then years at a time for child rearing.

I get it, I do. I get that I would be a chance that most places wouldn’t want to take. I was deeply shocked that McDonald’s was one of those places, but hey. I’m sure it was more to do with my scheduling conflict than anything. (Or not, since McDonald’s is always open and flexible with student hours…but I digress).

So, I sent off some résumés, not expecting much at all. Then, yesterday morning, I got a phone call from one of the places I applied at, asking if I’d come in for an interview this evening.

It’s for a receptionist/assistant type position within a small business. The owner is looking to expand and needs someone to do up proposals, help with sales and research/reach potential clients.

It’s for 15-25 hours a week, with the possibility of working from home and the possibility of it leading to a full-time position.

I’m nervous about this interview. I haven’t worked since…well, since 2011, at that hosting job that I loved, but couldn’t physically handle despite my longing to. I had to resign from it, with the encouragement of my manager, who said I “looked like I was in pain all the time, and it made the customers uncomfortable”. (So basically, I wasn’t an ideal employee because of a similar issue to bitchy resting face; chronic pain resting face).

I’m nervous that I won’t get it. I’m nervous that the job won’t be something I can physically do. I’m nervous to be honest about my physical limitations, because in the past that’s costed me job opportunities.

I’m also nervous that I will get the job. Then what? How would I balance everything at home and a part-time job? I’ve never really done it before. I mean, when I worked at the diner, I only had a few shifts a week and I only had one child. How would this work, as a one vehicle family? We’d have to get Matt’s truck on the road, or I’d have to take public transit. I have no experience taking public transit.

Then there’s daycare. I am hoping I can plan my schedule around my mother-in-laws and Matt’s (when he’s working).

The possibility of working from home is beyond appealing. I have no idea how this interview will go, but my fingers are crossed that I wow the guy, get the job and get to work from home at least half the time so that I don’t have to worry about public transit and daycare.

If I don’t get the job, this opens up the big debate on whether or not I should continue looking. I sent out resumes in a fit of desperation, really, and wasn’t expecting anything back. Truthfully, I’m not even sure if me trying to work outside the home is ideal for us. It’d come out of my disability, and it will likely cost more. As soon as Matt’s working full time, it will be more beneficial. Hopefully, that time will come soon. He’s currently trying to finish the union paperwork (which apparently requires to know every detail about every member in our extended family, and he’s waiting for them all to reply with the information), then once that is submitted, hopefully a job will follow.

I’m going to take my chances right now and go to the interview. Who knows, maybe I don’t stand a chance. Maybe I do, and maybe it’ll be possible for me to work from home (which is what I really wanted, from the beginning. To still get to be here with my boys, but to make some money).

Wish me luck!

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  1. Oh my gosh! That’s awesome news. I can understand your worries, though. This should be a much less physically demanding job than the hostess one you had. You will probably spend most of the day sitting. This might just be perfect for you!

    Since you have a documented disability, you may want to be up front about it. This will allow your potential employer to make accommodations for you. I know that, in the US, an employer can’t not hire you because of your disability. They have to find some way to enable you to perform the tasks. I’m not sure if it’s the same in Canada, so look into it.

    My fingers are crossed for you. <3


    1. I’ve never been blatantly told my disability is the reason for me not getting a job, but I’m pretty good at reading people in this. If an interview is going very well, and I tell them I have a disability and state my limitations, and suddenly they seem closed off and I don’t get a call back, the likely culprit is the disability. Companies would have to pay for those accommodations and they’d have to allow more time for breaks and if there’s someone else who can do all the things I can’t do…well.

      But I have gotten jobs because of my honesty before. They took chances on me. But a lot of the time I did get pressured into quitting (like at Wendy’s and the diner) because my limitations and my chronic pain resting face.

      Thanks hun!


  2. Haha! I totally get “bitch face”. I have it too. Or when you get a sharp pain out of nowhere, yelp out loud, then a second later it’s gone and you’re fine….people always look at me like I’m nuts! Be you’re adorable self and I’m sure things will go great. Wishing you lots of luck!


    1. Thanks hun! It’s funny, isn’t it…getting called out for your bitch/chronic pain resting face haha.

      “You look like you’re in pain all the time…”

      “Um, chronic pain. That’s because I AM in pain all the time…”

      Head desk. Some people haha


  3. Good for you for sending out resumes and going on that interview! It’s good to investigate the options. You’ll weigh it out and see if the (a) job is worth it. Whatever you decide you’re doing what’s right for you and the fam!


    1. Thank you!

      I haven’t gone yet — 5 more hours until interview time. I’m just getting all anxious about it 😉


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