Late last week, I applied for several jobs online. I didn’t expect a call back, since even McDonald’s refused to hire me a few years back, due to the “holes of unemployment” in my résumé. Yes, apparently companies don’t like it if you take off months at a time for surgeries, and then years at a time for child rearing.
I get it, I do. I get that I would be a chance that most places wouldn’t want to take. I was deeply shocked that McDonald’s was one of those places, but hey. I’m sure it was more to do with my scheduling conflict than anything. (Or not, since McDonald’s is always open and flexible with student hours…but I digress).
So, I sent off some résumés, not expecting much at all. Then, yesterday morning, I got a phone call from one of the places I applied at, asking if I’d come in for an interview this evening.
It’s for a receptionist/assistant type position within a small business. The owner is looking to expand and needs someone to do up proposals, help with sales and research/reach potential clients.
It’s for 15-25 hours a week, with the possibility of working from home and the possibility of it leading to a full-time position.
I’m nervous about this interview. I haven’t worked since…well, since 2011, at that hosting job that I loved, but couldn’t physically handle despite my longing to. I had to resign from it, with the encouragement of my manager, who said I “looked like I was in pain all the time, and it made the customers uncomfortable”. (So basically, I wasn’t an ideal employee because of a similar issue to bitchy resting face; chronic pain resting face).
I’m nervous that I won’t get it. I’m nervous that the job won’t be something I can physically do. I’m nervous to be honest about my physical limitations, because in the past that’s costed me job opportunities.
I’m also nervous that I will get the job. Then what? How would I balance everything at home and a part-time job? I’ve never really done it before. I mean, when I worked at the diner, I only had a few shifts a week and I only had one child. How would this work, as a one vehicle family? We’d have to get Matt’s truck on the road, or I’d have to take public transit. I have no experience taking public transit.
Then there’s daycare. I am hoping I can plan my schedule around my mother-in-laws and Matt’s (when he’s working).
The possibility of working from home is beyond appealing. I have no idea how this interview will go, but my fingers are crossed that I wow the guy, get the job and get to work from home at least half the time so that I don’t have to worry about public transit and daycare.
If I don’t get the job, this opens up the big debate on whether or not I should continue looking. I sent out resumes in a fit of desperation, really, and wasn’t expecting anything back. Truthfully, I’m not even sure if me trying to work outside the home is ideal for us. It’d come out of my disability, and it will likely cost more. As soon as Matt’s working full time, it will be more beneficial. Hopefully, that time will come soon. He’s currently trying to finish the union paperwork (which apparently requires to know every detail about every member in our extended family, and he’s waiting for them all to reply with the information), then once that is submitted, hopefully a job will follow.
I’m going to take my chances right now and go to the interview. Who knows, maybe I don’t stand a chance. Maybe I do, and maybe it’ll be possible for me to work from home (which is what I really wanted, from the beginning. To still get to be here with my boys, but to make some money).
Wish me luck!