There will always be naysayers, people who like to spout off with their negativity and bring others down. Some disguise this negativity; some say “I’m just being realistic”. But the result is the same: it makes your drive wilt. It makes you feel as if you’re doing something wrong. It can be a fleeting emotion, before you shake it off and press on, or you could let that negativity run you.
I’ve always struggled with negativity. I’ve always been insecure and uncertain of my abilities. I’ve always downplayed my talents, because that’s how I was brought up – I watched an important woman in my life downplay her talents and worth. I watched her battle insecurity. She never meant to pass that trait on, but it happens. Despite our best efforts, we tend to pass on negative traits to our children.
When I started writing, I was afraid to tell people about it. I didn’t want to hear anything negative. I didn’t want them to tell me that I was wasting my time, that I’d never make it big, and that there were already so many talented authors out there. I didn’t want to hear those things because I thought those things, and I was afraid that having them voiced by someone who wasn’t me would break my tender spirit.
I have come far enough now that I can see results, and that keeps me moving towards my end goal. My end goal is simple; keep pumping out more books. I’m doing that, and I love that. I love writing, I love sharing my stories with the world, and I love making connections to people who share that love…the love of words and pages.
But sometimes; I feel discouraged, insecure, uncertain, and hesitant.
I have to work hard to get my mind away from the negativity, from the fear. I have to embrace the mindset I had when I was little; that I can be anything I put my mind to.
I am worth the investment.