My palms sweat whenever I’m anxious. Unfortunately, I’m anxious quite a bit.
I told Sarah I’d write about this weird little quirk of mine, even though it really really embarrasses me and always has. Seriously, I’ve been dealing with sweaty palms since before I can remember. My mom used to tell me that she always knew when someone made me uncomfortable, because my hands would get sweaty in hers.
I deal with a lot of general anxiety issues, but I find my anxiety is the absolute worse during social situations.
New social situations mean introductions, which means hand shakes. During the months leading up to a big event (like a book signing, or some other social engagement outside of my usual comfort zone), I agonized over the possibility of hand shakes. I hate shaking hands, not because other people’s hands gross me out (they don’t), but because I’m convinced they’ll be grossed out by how sweaty mine are.
Like, literally–sweat will run off my palm and down the inside of my arm. I’m like a bloody frog, secreting a protective layer of sweat. I’m like the Saint Bernard in Beethoven when he shakes and water and drool flies everywhere, only it’s sweat and my hands and I don’t shake them because I don’t want to shower people in my hand sweat.
So, not only do I get to deal with anxiety, I get the extra discomfort of trying to discreetly wipe my sweaty palms against my clothes, which never really works to the full effect. My hands will still be…moist…and I’ll still hate shaking hands, because I’ll know how moist mine are and then I’ll start thinking about how everybody hates the word moist, so they must certainly hate hand moisture.
Unfortunately, the whole sweaty hands thing is probably one of the less annoying physical manifestations of my anxiety. I also get intense stomach aches, migraines, the typical racing heart, and sometimes–waves of dizziness.
The only way to avoid these symptoms: avoid human contact. Just kidding! I’ve got two words for you: it’s medicinal.
Do you have anxiety? In what ways does it physically manifest in your life?